But sometimes I just don’t have anything to say. And sometimes, like today, I have a lot of words that I need to get out. But it’s hard to get them out because they’re going so fast in my head.
Do you ever just get overwhelmed with everything that you have going on? Work, side projects, medical stuff. Joe and I are working on buying a condo so that’s scheduling viewings, looking at viewings, checking out neighborhoods, commute times, what can we live without? Is outdoor space more important than having a 2nd bathroom? It’s just so many things to have to remember!
Then, I have so many medical issues that I should take care of while the taking care of is good. One of these things is a big oral surgery that is going to require a 6-month healing period and then another 3-month healing period! And, it’s time for Joe and I to start planning our family. Not having one, but planning on having one. This takes up a lot of mental capacity for me.
And I hate cantaloupe, so why am I craving it? Ever since I got sick (acute bronchitis) I’ve just craved cantaloupe and that’s all I want to eat. I also like mushrooms now, so that’s fun.
To reference my 2012 resolutions (I don’t think I made any in 2013. And I know I didn’t make any in 2014), I am eating more vegetables, I am also eating better, I’m not going to the gym more, I’m slightly more active, I am not on a regular sleep schedule unless you count going to bed as early as possible as a regular thing, I drink a lot more water, I drink the same amount of coffee. Maybe I’m nicer to people? I’ve definitely grown to be more compassionate. I don’t think that I talk to my parents more, but it is easier now that my dad has an iPhone and I can text him. I am totally NOT more financially responsible. However, I know the root of my problem – I hate to say no to myself. Still living in the same place, but… See above. My parents helped me pay down my credit card debt. Now I am just working on not building it back up.
And, I have a full time job and have had one for a while now. AND… I’m kind of a big deal and people call me Miss Tammy.